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[cashe]

Ashe here. These things been 'round long enough. Y'know what to do.

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[tagartist]

i mean i can't deny that

i noticed. vaguely gesturing at everything with you and dad.

[cashe]

It was perfect, just the right amount of sarcasm and cutting truth.
Look I'm proud again.

C'mon on, I tried real hard to bitch AND give up on that one.

[tagartist]

bullshit mama, you couldn't even bring yourself to shoot him

[cashe]

You and B.O.B.! I swear to God. Doubting my convictions. Do I half ass anything?

[tagartist]

did you want me to answer that honestly

[cashe]

ANYWAY.

Let's go back to talking about your daddy being a pain in the ass.

[tagartist]

idk i think we should delve more deeply into this topic

[cashe]

Yes.

The topic of your daddy being a pain in the ass.

[tagartist]

i was thinking more the topic of how you pretended you hated him but you definitely did not

[cashe]

Oh no. That was authentic. I am just starting to think maybe you can have more than one feeling for a person.

[tagartist]

you know there is a difference between being angry, hurt, and resentful and full on hating someone
right???
this is important mom, i need to gauge how out of touch you are with the proper spectrum of emotion

[cashe]

[ What the hell? ]

Come on! This is the topic of why I am a pain in the ass.

[tagartist]

well yeah
it is

[cashe]

This is supposed to be about your daddy.

[tagartist]

you're right i'm sorry
so










tell me how you feel about daddy

[cashe]

[ This feels unfair. And it's treading into uncomfortable territory. Feelings? What are those?

There is a lot of erasing and typing on this one. ]

I don't know!

He confuses me and he makes me feel all kinds of things. I don't know where to start or explain it.

He makes me mad. He makes me happy. The one thing I can't seem to feel for him is indifference.

Happy?

[tagartist]

yes :)
sounds like you like him a lot

[cashe]

Not by choice! My life would be a whole lot easier if I could just shoot him.

[tagartist]

we never CHOOSE who we fall for, that'd make life way too fucking convenient

[cashe]

Wouldn't it just.

What are you looking for here Chloe?
If you are hoping I'll detail some declarations of love, that's not so much how I work. Love's a dangerous word.

[tagartist]

i just like knowing you care about him. it doesn't have to be love. but you guys are so happy when you're together and i think you both deserve that.

[cashe]

Fiiiiiiiiine.
When he isn't driving me crazy, he makes me happier than anything or anyone else ever has. Not really sure what that means.

[tagartist]

i don't think it matters what it means
i'm just glad he does

[cashe]

Maybe I shouldn't think too much about it.

With you making cookies for him, I haven't figured out what to give him for Christmas.
You either.
Or B.O.B.
Or some of these kids I keep an eye on.
Or this one little cowgirl I know.
I don't buy presents. Maybe it'd be weird if I gave anyone anything.
I don't like this place.
No one expects anything from me back.
They just let me be a bitch.
And high end criminals don't tend to give gifts.
Unless it's peace offerings to other gangs.
Did I mention I don't like this place?

[tagartist]

i'd say get him a pony but we already use THAT gag up on his birthday.
i don't really need anything for christmas, though. and you should get B.O.B. a bowtie to go with his bowler cap. idk about the kids or tiny cowgirls tho. you're on your own there.

no one's expecting anything of you, mama. gifts are from the heart, they're not obligations, and they'll love whatever you get them. that's how friendship works. you just have high expectations for yourself because you want them to know how much you care.

you're a softy 😝